Every day he teaches me something. About the world, about his day, but usually he teaches me something about myself. He tells me I’m smarter than I think I am, I am stronger and more capable. I am funny and huggable. He makes me feel warm and worthy.
I don’t know how he does it. How he does it after seven years of marriage and fourteen years of holding hands. I am not easy to be married to. I overthink things, I destroy relationships, I harden myself easily. But he knows me. He knows that I push people away so I can never disappoint them. He teaches me that I am better than I want to realize.
This is painful, yet incredibly fulfilling to write. To admit that I feel unworthy. To let others see my weakness. But he knows me. And he loves me.
So I sit here, crying, trying to think of the words. To tell him I’m grateful, indebted and so incredibly in love with him. He is amazing. I hope I teach him that.
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Cheers to seven and here’s to seventy more!