One single tear rolled down my cheek and saturated the seat belt. NO. NO. NO, I will not cry. Not today, today will not be ruined. It was too late, my face scrunched into an unrecognizable sob. One of those deep-heart, ugly cries, at a stoplight, midday, surrounded by people. Monday was a BEAUTIFUL day, seriously, one of the most beautiful days I have seen on this island and despite my positive self talk, I was wailing with my windows down in the middle of Wahiawa. My failed launch of this beautiful new website that morning and the stress of tax day both ganged up on me Monday. On my way home from the tax appointment I couldn’t fight the frustrated, tired tears any longer…actually it was the fourth time I cried Monday, probably making my attempt to stop it worse.
I tell you this literal sob story because this is real. This is the real me. I’m a perfectionist, a people pleaser, and a photographer…but it turns out I’m not a web-developer, designer, nor am I a tax whiz. I had this beautiful film session from a workshop on Maui to post with the launch of my website, but I’ve tripped so many times this week I thought I’d tell you the real story. (PS posting that tomorrow)
Monday night, around 7pm was the first time I cried happy tears that day. You wanna know why? I asked for help. I am notorious for wanting to do things all on my own, even if on my own won’t be as good. I’m done with that. That’s a lonely, stressful way to live. Dustin, although it took someone else to ask, thank you for helping me get this website up and running. Thank you for letting me cry happy tears. Thank you for not letting me be alone.
Everyone else reading this, thank you for your support. Thank you for your encouragement, advice and even criticisms. Overall, thank you for your help.
Now that I’m all giddy and most of the glitches are fixed, here are some pretty film pictures. I will be be making a few changes to the site in the next few weeks and if you run into any issues, please let me know! I’ll take any help I can get….hahaha. Get it?